so tonight i was really upset about the pool being closed and i just felt depressed. so i ate WAYYYY TOOOOOO MUCHHHH. i feel like shit for eating so much sugar, but i am ready to change when i go back to school on sunday. actually, i’d really like to start eating better tomorrow. i AM going to eat better tomorrow. and by better, i mean less processed, sugary foods, and less calories overall.
When I was 12, I weighed about 120 lbs. When I was 13, I weighed about 105 lbs. When I was 15, I weighed 89 lbs. When I was 17, I weighed about 100 lbs. Now, I’m 20 and I weigh about 155 lbs. I’ve been 5’7” the whole time. I don’t wanna go back to 100 lbs, but I’d like to get to about 130-140 lbs. I miss my eating disorder and the control that came with it, but I also know that it was so bad for me. My main reason for wanting to lose weight is to feel better about myself and to put less stress on my joints when I run. So, this blog is to hold me accountable and document my progress as I work toward my weight loss goals.